Things I'm Grateful For

 I am grateful for the friends I've had in my life. The wonderful people who paid for my meals, movies, clubs, everything. So many people in my life have been generous. I'm grateful for that.

I'm grateful for having been able to play video games a lot. The experience of that for most of my life has been pretty cool and interesting.

I'm grateful for knowing "God" and I'd certainly still like to know more.

I'm grateful for having had discussions that opened my mind more and taught me how to express myself differently.

I'm grateful for my mom for being the very best mother she could be while also being totally screwed up. Her love was infinite and always obvious to me even when I was angry with her.

I'm grateful for my sister who has been my best friend my entire life even when we were angry with each other.

I'm grateful for my brother even though I barely know him. It's weird and wonderful to feel so much love for someone I barely had time with. 

I'm grateful to all the horrible people for making me hate this world so much. Without them, I wouldn't be as "strong" as I am. I'm grateful they make it so easy to not care about living.

Maybe I started being sarcastic. Maybe.

It's a beautiful world out there. Tainted by society. I'm grateful that I have seen, witnessed, and could recognize the beauty within all the horror.

I'm sorry it's not enough.