Below is a post I had written in 2021 and decided not to leave published. I have zero hope. All I have now is hate and despair. I had notes with intention of adding on to and finalizing the post below but I never ended up doing so. --
I was "activated" in 2020. I never cared for my government or my country. As far as I could always tell, it wasn't any good. I didn't know how bad it really was. I should have. But maybe I just never had any good History teachers. Or they knew they couldn't tell us the truth. I don't know why school was so useless but it was.
The first thing I was trying to do when I finally couldn't take it anymore in 2020, all the bullcrap, I was like "fine, I'll try voting again." I'll never forget the first two times I wanted to vote. First was at the age of eighteen. I had seen politics on TV before and what I had seen never gave me any hope. But at eighteen I was legally able to vote. I never liked politics. And when first trying to get into voting I was immediately turned off from it. Everything was gross. There wasn't a single policy that I could "vote" on that didn't have five, or ten or more negatives attached to it if it passed.
The next time I wanted to try again was in my early thirties. I put some more effort into it that time. But it was the same thing. No matter what we vote for, it's all garbage. At forty-two (forty-three during) 2020, I looked for real solutions. I was like this can't keep f***ing going on. I should have known better, though. I have never in my life seen our government actually get better for the people.
What I sadly discovered is that there is no true solution to politics outside of literally starting from scratch. I also discovered that neither the republican or democratic party are any different from the other. It's all just for show. I had heard that a lot since I was a kid. The "lesser evil" has been around since long before I was born.
I had to learn the truths about Obama and even several of the previous presidents. I learned more about american history in one single year than the rest of my lifetime. That is mostly because I had to look for it myself. And I found a lot of it from people that don't live in america. They experienced the atrocities of our government from their own countries.
People want to talk and act like we can work within the system. We cannot. That is impossible. So the other solution that I came across was local organizations. People in a city or town community that work together and run their own town kind of thing. The problem with that is it literally does nothing for the system as a whole. The system itself will never change.
I am not under any assumption that starting from scratch would be easy. I believe it is fully required. The system we live under is vile and demonic.
